Faith or Adversity
There have been so many devastations recently around the world that I have started to wonder if my faith alone is enough to carry me through to the next side. Copunded by the very nature of man, which is opportunistic in the most savage of ways, people take advantage of other when they are down on the ground. There are lootings, there are muders and so many other things that are brought out by these disasters.
To me though human beings are a brave set of souls. They seem to recover from the worst. I am sure that the endemics of the past, when they befell the populace were considered the end of the world, but human adversity was storng, and I am sure that most people were carried forward through a very storng push by their faith. You see it doesn't matter what you belive in, a specific religion, if you have faith, you could believe in yourself, and you could believe in the humanity of others.
Latley though it just seems that its been going the other way, people are beginning to lose faith, and I am one of the few who are questioning the very devastations. I know its begging the question because I truly believe that we should give ourselves without question to the wishes and commands to the Lord. But there is tht element of doubt that creeps in your mind and I think it has crept into my mind. I would love to have faith again, you know that kind of faith before your loss of innocence, when you believed that the world was essentially a good place that people still cared, that there was enough good in this earth that could overcome the evil. Pretty much all the euphoric, ideal, and perfect ideas that came to your mind. I wish I could have them again. But the harder I try the harder it becomes. Its like a sandtrap, you know the one mentioned in the movie replacements. When you get into one, you try to struggle, and you go deeper. The only solution is to stop struggling and you will come out, but you don't because its against human instinct to give up, and so you keep struggling knowing that you are going to sink deeper. I effect killing yourself.
I know if I believe blindly I ought not to question but to help and be content with the hand nature has dealt those people, but trust me when I say this that it becomes so hard not to. I guess I try to take the easy way out, instead of stuggling with the truth and finding out on my own.
I hope that I can have more faith, but I know I can't and I keep sinking without any hope of ever coming out.
To me though human beings are a brave set of souls. They seem to recover from the worst. I am sure that the endemics of the past, when they befell the populace were considered the end of the world, but human adversity was storng, and I am sure that most people were carried forward through a very storng push by their faith. You see it doesn't matter what you belive in, a specific religion, if you have faith, you could believe in yourself, and you could believe in the humanity of others.
Latley though it just seems that its been going the other way, people are beginning to lose faith, and I am one of the few who are questioning the very devastations. I know its begging the question because I truly believe that we should give ourselves without question to the wishes and commands to the Lord. But there is tht element of doubt that creeps in your mind and I think it has crept into my mind. I would love to have faith again, you know that kind of faith before your loss of innocence, when you believed that the world was essentially a good place that people still cared, that there was enough good in this earth that could overcome the evil. Pretty much all the euphoric, ideal, and perfect ideas that came to your mind. I wish I could have them again. But the harder I try the harder it becomes. Its like a sandtrap, you know the one mentioned in the movie replacements. When you get into one, you try to struggle, and you go deeper. The only solution is to stop struggling and you will come out, but you don't because its against human instinct to give up, and so you keep struggling knowing that you are going to sink deeper. I effect killing yourself.
I know if I believe blindly I ought not to question but to help and be content with the hand nature has dealt those people, but trust me when I say this that it becomes so hard not to. I guess I try to take the easy way out, instead of stuggling with the truth and finding out on my own.
I hope that I can have more faith, but I know I can't and I keep sinking without any hope of ever coming out.
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