Sunday, July 31, 2005

I am back

After a long long haitus, I am back, back with a little gusto. I spent the previous 2 months in Pakistan and what a blast it was. There were good times and there were great times, but then obviously there were times that I thought I wouldn't be able to take what was happening.

Since I have left Paksitan about 6 years ago and adopted US as my home, there have been times when I wished that I would just go back and stay there, especially when I was hungry, and prpbably lonely. But this time around when i went back, I noticed that the place had changed so radically, and there were things that I looked at from a different point of view that it almost baffled me at first.

Everyone in Pakistan is going through a transition, be it the low, middle or top class of people. Education abound, but employment at its lowest, Mosques abound but deficiency of faith, and most importantly people are going through a change in image within themselves. I guess they are confused about whether they should be for or against the war on terrorism, or even basic than that, is it really terrorism or merrely another facet of a war to come, as predicted in the annals of inslamic history. If someone figures it out they try to align themselves with a similar ideology.

I hate to term it materialistic (it is a very cliched word) but still I felt it ever growing, back home, people are getting so much miney but no where to spend it. They want all that is western, ot maybe all that is modern. Th sad part is that modern these days is synonamous with the west. People are getting used to the increased exposure to the eastern neighbor, and the western media. Programs like Sex and the city and other modern dayu satirical americana programs have not only been welcomed back home but the ever so present housewife is finding these programs a great respite from her boring reality.

There is an air of restlessness present, an anxiety at best to find something more than what people have seen their entire lives. They know they have an opportunity to escape what is present, so they try to lead lives accordingly. There is so much changing that its hard to put it in words. I will, from time to time, update this space, but for now I think this is a start.